The Calvary Road

One of the most challenging books I've ever read in my Christian walk.

Its about being completely broken before God so He can fill us with His Holy Spirit to overflowing.

I look at my own life and see the lack of brokenness. I look at the church and see a group of people that want attention for themselves or to show that they are soo spiritual. Or that they are "under grace" and can do what they want. I see a lack of regard for God that makes me sad.

The reason that we need to be broken and empty of ourselves is so that the Lord can fill us to overflowing with His spirit. Where there is self there cannot be God.

I want to be so filled with Gods Holy Spirit that I don't even notice the problems in the church anymore. I want to be in a place where I completely trust God to deal with the situation. I know there's a place for critique and criticism, but I *know* God is not calling me to this. I know He is calling me to a place of brokenness that is discussed in this book.

He has called me to walk this road alone to live a life of worship to Him. I can't think of a higher calling.

Simple faith

I just want to walk with you Lord. That's it. I want a life that is dedicated fully to you and one that lives to give you glory and serve you. I love you God.

Singleness

Lord Jesus please help me to live a life that brings glory to you.

I'm listening to Jon Mac Arthur and he's talking about singleness. I think I am okay to remain single. I trust the Lord to take care of me. I do desire to stay focused on the Lord. I'm a lot happier by myself focusing on Jesus. I'm also afraid that I will marry someone (again) that will drag me down spiritually.

Thank you Lord for saving me. I trust you to keep me in your love. Thank you.

Harvest America!! Coming August 26th 2012

I am SO excited about this!

Its so true! We can now watch the Harvest Crusade from just about anywhere! I was thinking about that last year when I was watching online. Most people have some sort of device that they can carry with them and watch, from an iPhone to Netbook to a Laptop and more. You can watch virtually anywhere, especially if you have an earbud. You can watch by yourself or with friends.

You can sit in Starbucks (or Peets, or Portola) and watch, you can watch while you're doing laundry at the Laundromat, you don't need a babysitter, you don't need to even be able to leave your home. You can hear the gospel message and some great music! 

Even if you aren't watching with anyone or at a venue as they suggest, you can still make a decision for Christ and respond online. There are people that will chat with you online or you can just send a message to Harvest saying that you've made the decision to follow Christ and they'll send you out follow up materials and a New Testament. 

Harvest America Video:

I'd encourage you to tell everyone that you know about this opportunity. Send them reminders as the event date gets closer so they are sure not to miss it! Post it on Twitter! Please let everyone you know, know!! :)

Found out pastor Chuck may have cancer

I listened to the broadcast online this morning and pastor Chuck announced that he may have lung cancer. It was heartbreaking. He has never smoked in his life. How very ironic.

Love you pastor Chuck.

I never thought...

I never thought that it would be this difficult to come back to Christ. It's difficult not because I really don't believe (as some people may assert) but because my heart is hardened in a way. I have let so many things that are not of God into my life. Even though it was for a short season and things that were really not all that bad (probably the worst thing is swearing and okay maybe the increase in masturbation, but thats about it), I still feel like I am not as close to God as I was.

I do see a difference though. I was trying to do my whole Christian walk in my own strength. My "walk" before was about my ego and not looking bad before man. I made sure I looked and sounded very "Christian" to everyone, but many times my thoughts about people and situations were not very Christlike. I was a huge phony as a Christian in the past. I never confessed my struggles. I was very pious. I was more worried about what other people were or were not doing over being concerned about my OWN standing before God.

I am still not working (I haven't had a steady job since 2007!) and all of that time I could have spend growing closer to God. I guess He dealt with the pride and phoniness in me that He needed to. My desire is to live right (and steadfastly) before Him and not worry about what anyone else is doing.

I'm also really excited about easter this year. If He was never resurrected, then there wouldn't be an easter and there wouldn't be Christianity. I cannot wait to celebrate.